Notes on ride 1 cadence Rudy jumping Julie

I know what I need to work on:
Canter departure strong legs so that his hop becomes a canter every time
Canter rhythm to the jump so that I can see the distance before I get there
Legs on stronger at the jump
Never let him break the canter
Heels down weight down at the jump, natural 2point
Release when you see that he’s taken his last stride, release doesn’t have to be huge on him
Downward transitions, keeping my butt down heels down hands down
Keep his rhythm canter around corners strong legs no bulging in the turn

in LA he came out of this funk. it was not just refreshing but inspiring to see him not act like this http://tinyurl.com/6dwcg7u aloof, guarded. his entire mannerisms were different. its a powerful thing seeing firsthand how much someones physicality can drastically shift affected by something like comfort. esp in a similarly media-controlled setting, a staged interview. its depressing to think that someone so emotionally powerful governs themself by a code of publicity, terms on how to act confident while youre broken down by so many people taking your image into what they make of you to be important.
its like things are so scarily out of control to him he cant face it, he has to put on this costume and pretend like hes comfortable publicizing himself when really hes so ashamed of something.

it makes me feel like 15 years of devoting yourself to a public-run business makes you think youre so confident when really the life inside you has been put out by the fact that youre so guarded of other peoples opinions

“
you used to put the s in selfish
most of the time the only one you cared for was yourself
but then you go and put the a in affection
and you could make me forget about everything else.

= him with me

sung by e. denters

me

me

The night is deafening
When the silence is listening
And I’m down on my knees
And I know that something is missing
Because the back of my mind is holding things I’m relying in,
But I choose to ignore it because I’m always denying them.

I’m a bit of a manic when it’s not as I plan it,
‘Cause I start losing my head
And then I get up in a panic
Remember, when we were kids
And always knew when to quit it
Are we denying a crisis, or are we scared of admitting it?

I don’t want to know

I just wanna run to you,
And break off the chains, and throw them away
I just wanna be so much,
And shake off the dust that turned me to rust
Sooner than later, I’ll need a saviour
I’ll need a saviour

It won’t ever change if you want it to stay the same
I really hate it, but I know it’s hard to choose if you’re chained
And when it’s all you can control, ‘cause you’ve got nothing else to hold
You’re getting tighter and tighter, it’s getting harder to let it go

I don’t want to know

I just wanna run to you,
And break off the chains,
And throw them away
I just wanna be so much,
And shake off the dust that turned me to rust
Sooner than later, I’ll need a saviour
I’ll need a saviour

Stand me up and maybe I won’t be so small,
Free my hands and feet and maybe I won’t always fall
Save me

I just wanna run to you,
And break off the chains,
And throw them away
I just wanna be so much
And shake off the dust that turned me to rust
I just wanna run to you
And break off the chains,
And throw them away
I just wanna be so much
And shake off the dust that turned me to rust
Sooner than later, I’ll need a saviour
I’ll need a saviour

this is me, in the condition i will be in in my happy life View high resolution

this is me, in the condition i will be in in my happy life

i’m depressed, sitting here eating a huge cucumber (no joke intended)

Am I your fire? Your one desire? Yes I know it’s too late; but I want it that way.

happY halloweeN! View high resolution

happY halloweeN!

“
Can I let the trees do the talking, can I let the ground do the walking, can I let the sky fill what’s missing, can I let my mouth do the listening?
LIGHTS